CNY

Personally, I find CNY rather boring. I used to love this event as we would be celebrating my great grandfather's birthday in the restaurant, ie we will get to eat lots of delicious food. Of course, there were angpau too. Now, nothing about CNY is appealing except the holidays itself and that I have the opportunity to travel. In the future days to come, I will celebrate CNY with my family for the first few days and ciao I go to some other place. Somehow when I thought about travelling overseas in the future, I picture myself travelling alone carrying a backpack walking between some ancient buildings in black and white. Whether I will have the chance to travel to such places in such fashion or not, I will soon find out.

Disappointment

I am quite a disappointment eh? Did some things that were wrong but I don't really feel guilty about it. All the same, I will change my lazy ways and be a better daughter. Finally did I know the truth of what they were thinking about me all these while. Do they think that I am so because I am an open book and rather predictable? Cuz some other people who they think are rather innocent are actually worse than me. All the same, it is good to know what people actually think about me in the back of their minds. I know, I have not much achievements in my life. In fact, the only thing about me which I can be proud of is my studies. Not that they think rather highly regarding that. I feel that the only way I can prove my worth to myself is through studying hard and doing well in my studies, as I have no other achievements to shout about. Overall, no matter what they said about being proud of me the other time, I will know at the same time, how lowly they think about me.